Mental Health

Mental Health

A cell leader’s first encounter with the blues

“I have clinical depression as well as a history of self-harm. Are you sure the cell group will accept me?” I was momentarily speechless as I looked at Rachel, who was sitting across me at the...

Mental Health

On depression, anxiety and ministry

Recently, a young pastor of an emerging church tragically took his life after battling depression and anxiety. He left behind his wife and three children, breaking his congregation’s heart and...

Mental Health

The fight to fight on

Broken relationships. Uncertainty. Work pressure. Inadequacy. Illness. Debt. Bullying. Injustice … We all have our battles to fight. It’s not a matter of comparing whose battle is more...

Mental Health

How my view on mental illness changed after I saved someone from committing suicide

I once thought that those who attempted to commit suicide were weak-willed and selfish individuals who had complete disregard of the love and concern of their loved ones and friends… But my...

Mental Health

In the aftermath of a suicide

A few years ago, I was one of the first responders to a suspected suicide. We received the news through a disruption in a regular meeting: First a knock on the door, then friends whispering …...

Mental Health

My messed-up life … now a message of life

I have always been a sensitive girl. Even in primary school, the smallest actions and words of my friends would deeply affect me. So I pushed them away before they could push me away. I often needed...

Mental Health

The prayer that saved my life

I wanted to commit suicide before I turned 18.  I was sick of life. I was just sick of everything. I had lived in a thick darkness for more than half my life, where my anxious and depressive...

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I’ve learned to be okay with not being good enough

The dark, gaping hole of not-enoughness has been part of my narrative for as long as I can remember. As a child with a typically uninterested, uninvolved father, I used to strive to be the center of...

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Twenty years on

During the 2018 World Cup, my darling wife Bernice reminded me that it has been 20 years since my struggle with clinical depression. The 1998 World Cup was in full swing then, played to the tunes of...